

Why in attitude you stood in a doorway
Not willing to concede not willing to
do anything but spar or stab your
index finger with a sewing needle
in order to extract something there all along
The way monographed gifts epitomize a
place I’d rather not be
The way entering a certain leaden house
The way a child mistakes car for driver
He stands clutching a plastic steak to his chest
Fencing with a chopstick
Asking, what does oblivious mean?
and you wonder why I refuse to be transfixed
By your gratuitous dramas
Here are the questions
I did not ask
And why I did not ask them
Do you read my thoughts
Continually as a practice
Or more spasmodically
As the line begins to waver
Do you speak to clarify
My aspiration
If I look down at the page
Will I remain unseen
Yet magically present like the seeker
Who is certain you speak to him privately
As I speak to you
How elastic is form?
This is a collaborative experiment in time. Consider ways to rearrange your time and space tendencies as a method (write yourself out of whatever existing parameters you fall into) and see what happens.
As a parent of two small children I invent time in order to work. Thus the one-minute sonnet. Thus the collaboration with the kids. And finally after many years of controlled circumstances, the allowing in of all voices, all time. Deep and scattered fragments of time. Loud and physical time. Someone else literally pulling you out of your chair. Writing in your sleep, or falling face first (exhaustion) into the keyboard while writing, as Maureen Owen so wonderfully describes in her essay in The Grand Permission.
I have collaborated with the daily news, with other poets, with the bumpiness of days passing in real time and with children’s voices, books, and sense of time. I have drawn from devotional practices the sense of the poem as an offering—it is beyond ownership—what may be given now. When time is unhinged anyone or any thing can speak: the dead, the imagined, the dictionary, the found. There is an openness I attempt to enter as an experiment, as a salute to, or recognition of time passing.
This is a wake up and discover another year disappearing tactic. It’s a surrender. Upheaval. It’s the tower card in tarot which means the ground beneath you literally shifts (and not slightly). It’s the painful slap on the back with a wooden block while you are doing the dishes. It’s the question whispered, “Mommy are you meditating?” and the little body, little voice climbs onto your lap as you sit and your old vision no longer exists. And your new role is more invisible for its commonness and more challenging and exquisite for its namesake than ever seemed possible.
This is not a lament, but rather a plea against the invisibility of the guardian.
A plea against invisibility or blindness to whatever circumstances you find yourself within. The circumstance may also become, inform, or suggest the poem and the practice.
All mental states, traps, games, and assemblages are welcome here. My sonnets are an approachable unruly gathering. What the poems have in common is that they practice permeability.
I think of the modern sonnet as an increment of time within a frame. Something that often physically fits into a little rectangle (but not in thought). Something you can utter in one long convulsive breath or hold in your palm. When my hand covers the page, it disappears. It’s a controlled measure of sound and space within which one can do anything.
This book is an invitation.